Baby Kicks.

I'm 29 weeks 3 days today, I cannot begin to describe how I am feeling at this point.

I am so close yet so far away from having my son in my arms.

I was hoping to give birth around 37 weeks due to my High blood pressure, which is very high.

Dr told me she doesn't induce until 39 weeks. Ridiculous in my opinion.

I see my high risk doctor 8/18. I am so anxious to see if my baby is OK in there.

I started feeling kicks around 20 weeks, like bubbles and taps.

Around 23 weeks they got stronger So far at 29 weeks the strength of the kicks have remained the same and I have felt scared almost everyday because I do not get strong kicks, I get soft tapping, rolling and a few small kicks, mostly rolling though and movement. I have 15 more days until I know for sure my son is Ok in there, then at around 32 weeks I should be starting NSTs.
I will be very happy for those because they will be making sure my baby isn't in any fetal distress. I just gotta make it to the end of August.

I really dislike my OB now, I thought she was amazing in the beginning but now I realize She hasn't done much for me except send to me a high risk doctor.

I go to see her tomorrow because of my medicine and hbp but as for monitoring my son she does not do crap.

I wish I could find another doctor sometimes.

For us bigger girls, I'm talking 250+ pounds i think feeling the baby is a little different.

I watch youtube videos of skinny girls  and their babies kicking and just wish my son would do that.
I feel his breech because he was breech at my last visit and I was only feeling him in my pelvic area, well its back to that so I think he's still quite breech. One day when he is kicking up high I may take a video of his kicks on my very fluffy belly to show girls on youtube so they can know what it looks like when you're chubby! Also  I really want to take video of him having hiccups on the doppler because there are no videos like that on youtube.
There is so much I want to do to help plus size girls online who happen to be pregnant.
We have no resources, no help in our fluffy pregnancies. Everything caters to thinner women. 

Maybe one day I will make a website or book directed towards us girls.

I need to get resources, and articles together and put them all in one place.
There's so much I wish I could do.