Elliot Emile Camama has arrived!

I think I have a curse or something.

These last 7 months have been the MOST stressful, horrible yet amazing days of my life.

I went into this pregnancy not expecting the worst and the worst has come, with BP problems, growth issues now I have low amnioitic fluid issues. I am 1CM from being hospitalized.

I go back tomorrow for NST, BPP and AFI level checking.

I am so so so so so so very very very very scared, I cannot stress this enough.

Then on top of this I get a miss call today on my cellphone (my charger is broke so I cannot charge my phone)

That I missed appointment with my High Risk Doctor. I NEVER HAD AN Appointment on August 5th. 

Apparently my OB scheduled me one and never told ME the person who should be informed FIRST.

God this is ridiculous, so now i have to call back tomorrow to see if I can come in and tell them about my situation.

Life is grand.

Baby Kicks.

I'm 29 weeks 3 days today, I cannot begin to describe how I am feeling at this point.

I am so close yet so far away from having my son in my arms.

I was hoping to give birth around 37 weeks due to my High blood pressure, which is very high.

Dr told me she doesn't induce until 39 weeks. Ridiculous in my opinion.

I see my high risk doctor 8/18. I am so anxious to see if my baby is OK in there.

I started feeling kicks around 20 weeks, like bubbles and taps.

Around 23 weeks they got stronger So far at 29 weeks the strength of the kicks have remained the same and I have felt scared almost everyday because I do not get strong kicks, I get soft tapping, rolling and a few small kicks, mostly rolling though and movement. I have 15 more days until I know for sure my son is Ok in there, then at around 32 weeks I should be starting NSTs.
I will be very happy for those because they will be making sure my baby isn't in any fetal distress. I just gotta make it to the end of August.

I really dislike my OB now, I thought she was amazing in the beginning but now I realize She hasn't done much for me except send to me a high risk doctor.

I go to see her tomorrow because of my medicine and hbp but as for monitoring my son she does not do crap.

I wish I could find another doctor sometimes.

For us bigger girls, I'm talking 250+ pounds i think feeling the baby is a little different.

I watch youtube videos of skinny girls  and their babies kicking and just wish my son would do that.
I feel his breech because he was breech at my last visit and I was only feeling him in my pelvic area, well its back to that so I think he's still quite breech. One day when he is kicking up high I may take a video of his kicks on my very fluffy belly to show girls on youtube so they can know what it looks like when you're chubby! Also  I really want to take video of him having hiccups on the doppler because there are no videos like that on youtube.
There is so much I want to do to help plus size girls online who happen to be pregnant.
We have no resources, no help in our fluffy pregnancies. Everything caters to thinner women. 

Maybe one day I will make a website or book directed towards us girls.

I need to get resources, and articles together and put them all in one place.
There's so much I wish I could do.

The parents 1.0.

Just thought everyone would want to see what we looked like as children. And now. haha.

Allow me to introduce myself.

My name is Sade, I live in Southern California.

I'm 24 years old and I grew up in a small town.

I don't even know where to start when describing myself, there's so much to say yet not enough.

I suppose I will start with how this baby came to be.

I met my fiancé in October 2008, we fell in love on our first date.

Yes, picture was actually taken on our first date! Haha! A month after meeting him we got pregnant with our first pregnancy, I lost that baby and it was devastating for us.

In July 2009 Edgar moved in with me and my family because his family was very unhappy that their filipino son was with a black girl, they disowned him and we have lived together ever since.

In July 2009 I got pregnant, We were ecstatic we could not believe it was real when we saw the cute little heart flutter.

A few weeks after this picture was taken my baby passed away. I was so shocked. I was so in love with my baby by then I was just crushed.
I took time to recover and did not want to get pregnant again, but in January 2010 I got a huge surprise, we were not trying to get pregnant.
I took a pregnancy test and low and behold;

I got a positive pregnancy test! I was sooo shocked and scared.
I waited until i was 10 weeks and got a heart doppler, it was the first time I heard my baby's heartbeat.

His heart rate was 188 or so.

At 14 weeks I went to an ultrasound college and got pictures of my son for the first time.

It was one of the best days of my life, seeing my child for the first time. Heart beating, squirming around.

He was perfect, gorgeous.

At 16 weeks I saw him again, in 4D;

He looked so precious in there.

At 19 weeks I found out he was a boy!

At 20 weeks they started me on BP medicines and I officially became a high risk pregnancy,

My first visit with my High risk doctor went well, and I got to see my little man.

He weighed 14 ounces at 21 weeks.

I went back at 25 weeks and he was measuring a week behind, I was so scared but I have had faith and I believe his is fine, OB thinks he is fine too.

I also was hospitalized yesterday for my HBP and they said he looks good, I have an appointment on August 18th to see his growth and I am praying everything looks good!
There is so much I could write about but I haven't got the the time, I am definitely going to write more here when I do have time but I hope as much as everyone enjoys my youtube channel, that they will enjoy my blog.

I promise to write lots and update with pictures of my progress and everything!